Archive for April, 2008

23 Months Old

Oh man, Daniel will be 2 in ONE MONTH! The time has flown by so quickly. I know that’s what every mother says, but it’s so true. In my case, though, it’s been a good thing. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve loved motherhood since day one, but it has been challenging. The older Daniel gets, the more fun I have and the more I love being a mom.

I really want to have another baby soon. We’re hoping that I might get pregnant in the next few months. I am also pretty nervous about it. I know there will be aspects that will be much easier (the know-how, the expectations, the “stuff”), but there will be many new challenges that I am sure I am not prepared for. I am trying not to think about them right now. Once I get pregnant, then I can worry about them. By that time, I won’t have a choice, and I’ll be better equipped to meet them head-on.

A couple days ago, when I was nursing Daniel, he let go to tell me, spontaneously, and of his own accord, “I love you.” I nearly melted into a big, huge (well, relatively small) puddle. I wished that the whole world could have seen/heard that moment.

Our sleep issues are slowly, but surely dissolving. We had a huge breakthrough a couple days ago–a remarkably quick transition given the month-or-longer transitions we’re accustomed to. I’ve been trying to cut out the just-before-bed nursing session, so Daniel might go to bed for someone other than me. I started by getting in the bath with him and letting him nurse there. It had a double-effect. One, his bath time was much more calming and relaxing, better preparing him for bed. Two–the intended effect–he wouldn’t need to nurse (as much) just before crawling into bed.

After bath time, he get’s dressed, reads a couple stories with daddy, then nurses a bit before laying down in bed, saying prayers and going to sleep. I started telling him he could have one more story when he was finished with his milk, and he was very responsive to that offer. Often he let go immediately and told me which story he wanted to read. Well, a couple days ago, I tried not nursing him at all–telling him he already had his milk in the bath and it was time to lay down in bed to say prayers. He didn’t complain at all, just laid down happily with his Wally (the Green Monster) to say prayers. He’s done that for 3 nights in a row now! And one of those times, I nursed him BEFORE the bath, instead (because I didn’t feel like getting in the tub that day), with the same results.

And for the same duration, he hasn’t been calling me to make sure I am still there. I just tell him good night, that I’ll be right outside his door if he needs me, then I leave. The *only* downside to the shortened bedtime routine, is that I’m missing my reading time. I used to get 20-30 minutes of uninterrupted reading done while Daniel nursed himself drowsy.

I’m currently looking for/thinking about ways I can bring in a little extra income. We’re doing well enough financially, but it’s not comfortable anymore. While it hasn’t gotten scary or worrisome, I don’t like when we have to dip into our savings just to pay our bills. Thank goodness we have a savings to dip into, though!

The project I’ve been working on has paid fairly well and we’re in good shape right now, but I only have one more check coming on that project, and one more coming for a different part of that project. I’m considering taking on a babysitting job for another toddler boy (am I nuts!?!) for 15-20 hours/week. Also, there may be some work for me at Hanson Distributing doing fliers and mailings and such, though I can’t imagine that to be very many hours. I’m not really willing to do anything that would require me to leave Daniel for any long stretch of time, so I’m pretty limited in what I can do, but I’ve been trying to be creative with my talents so I can turn them into a paycheck of some kind. I had a great idea this morning, but I can’t, for the life of me, remember what it was… I probably should have written it down…


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