Archive for May, 2008

We Jumped the Gun

After only a week of knowing I was pregnant, I miscarried–am miscarrying. I’ve been handling it pretty well–probably due to the fact that we knew about the pregnancy for such a short time. And because I was spotting from day 1, I suspected things weren’t quite right. Of course, had things turned out differently, I would have associated those feelings with paranoia. But because of the outcome, I can safely say “I had a feeling…”.

We are sad, but not distraught. And to those who are reading this and wondering what the appropriate response is, I would greatly prefer well wishes for a quick recovery (I’m still feeling “not right” and a little crampy and uncomfortable) over sympathy and apologies.

For an interesting bit of information, one study showed that 22% of women who conceived lost the “pregnancy” before their period was even supposed to begin. 10% of the pregnancies were lost after the woman recognized that she was pregnant. So in that study 32% of the pregnancies achieved were lost… an astounding number, really. In fact, had I not taken a pregnancy test, I might have just assumed this was an extra long cycle (would have been 40 days). In December I had a 44-day cycle… so the long cycle isn’t entirely out of character for me… and makes me wonder….

We’re looking forward to trying again in a couple months and are trying to keep things normal for Daniel’s sake–though it’s obvious he can sense that something is not right. My goal is to focus on his birthday party which is a week from tomorrow!

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Nearly 2 Years Old and Another One on the Way!!!

That’s right folks. I’m growing another little Hanson. This was another little surprise. We were trying to wait until this month to start trying for another, but got a little ahead of ourselves. But a one-month head-start is really nothing in the grand scheme of things. Really the only reason we were trying to wait was to keep the child’s birthday as far away from Christmas as possible. But now our due date is sometime in mid-January–a little too close for my comfort, but what can I do at this point?

The midwife who assisted at Daniel’s birth is no longer practicing midwifery, but the woman who was her partner still is and she’ll be attending this child’s birth. Dan and I really liked her last time (we did many of our prenatal visits with her)  and we’ve kept in touch with her over the last couple years.

Daniel doesn’t really understand what it means that I’m pregnant, or that a new baby will come to live in our house. We haven’t really tried explaining it beyond that yet. Right now we’re still trying to focus on his needs and his upcoming birthday party which he is very excited about.

Daniel will be 2 years old in about 2 weeks. It’s pretty amazing how quickly the time goes. I’ll have to remember to tell myself that when I’m calming a fussy baby at 2AM knowing that my toddler will need me to be ready to play by 8. Hopefully this time–now that I’m accustomed to very little sleep–it won’t be quite *as* bad.

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