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11 Weeks Pregnant

The last few days have been intense. Not because of the pregnancy, because of the draining conversations I’ve been having with my more conservative friends and family. Is it even worth debating with people who so obviously don’t want to hear what you have to say? Who don’t have an ounce of budge in their views? Who refuse to be open to reason? It’s probably not. But I can’t help myself.

Because I’m so emotionally tired of thinking about deep issues, it’s time to write about happy things and give you all an update.

A couple weeks ago, I started spotting again. I didn’t worry about it too much since it was such a small amount–or so I thought. But then last Thursday, it was different, so I immediately called the crazy doctor (because I hadn’t found another one yet), and made an appointment for that day at 2. Our friend Judy graciously offered to watch Daniel while we went to the appointment–since we didn’t know how many hours it might take. I was nervous leaving Daniel because I thought he might not be able to handle it (he’s never had a babysitter before). But he didn’t have a problem at all. He loved playing with Judy and his friend Annabel.

When we arrived at the office, the receptionist informed us that the doctor had just been called to an emergency C-section and wouldn’t be back for another 40 minutes. So we walked around, had coffee (I had decaf), then went back to the waiting room to wait. Thankfully, the doctor came back only a few minutes later than they had predicted, and we got to see him in less than an hour.

He confirmed that the bleeding was not coming from my uterus and the ultrasound showed a healthy baby jumping and waving at us. We were so relieved. This time, the scan reduced our miscarriage chances to less than one percent. When we got home, it hit me just how worried I had been about the spotting the previous week. I suddenly had a burst of energy and got some things done around the house, when the week before, all I wanted to do was lay around. I was just attributing the lazing around to pregnancy exhaustion, but I now realize it was a bit of depression thinking of losing another child. I’m so glad to be out of that mindset.

Since Thursday, I’ve made lasagna (from scratch–even the sauce), cranberry sauce, pumpkin muffins, a rotisserie chicken, and chicken-noodle soup. I’ve done laundry, had energy to play with Daniel and go for walks. I went to (and helped to organize) our church retreat in the mountains, drove to and from San Diego for a birthday party. And between all those things, had several intense debates on some of the big issues our nation and state are facing. I’d say I’m doing well.

Now if I could only figure out how to keep the house clean…

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